I'm really sorry that my first few posts have been such soul-sucking downers. I just felt that a little background is needed to help understand my perspective on things.
My G-ma, the one I lived with for 7 years, once said that for everything I've been through I've turned out pretty good, but she also said I was the only 3 year old cynic she ever met. My G-ma never knew what happened with my step-father. She may have suspected because she asked me once if there was anything going on other than excessive corporal punishment. I lied. When you are the obvious "mistake" in the family you learn not to make waves. I did everything I could not to call attention to myself and be a further burden on the family.
In some ways I like the fact that I felt ignored by my parents. This is the main reason that I do so much with and for my own children. Some people say that I put too much focus on them, but my time with them is so short in the grand scheme of things I don't think I can do enough to make the most of it. Sure there will be a void in my life when they leave home, but I'll figure out how to fill it when the time comes.
Unfortunately that time is coming a lot quicker than I thought it would.
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You're a great mom no matter what anyone else says. My parents drove me nuts as a teenager, but I think that was their job. :) However, once I got older, I was totally glad they were there for me. Whether or not your kids overwhelmingly appreciate it now, they will eventually. :)
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